Hello again! I’ve not fallen off the face of the earth – yet. Since my last post I have been to Nashville and back. We had a great time and met a lot of amazing, talented people. If you want to read more about it and hear some of the songs that Brian (my husband) performed, here is the link and below is one of videos. Check out his other videos here. Long story short, he is now more pumped than ever to write and perform and is making the intention to do so. Yay!
You may be wondering about the mission trip to Nepal that I mentioned in my last post. We have been asked to come lead the music for an annual mission’s conference in Pokhara Nepal. After many fears coming up on my part, we have officially made the decision to go for it. Geez, when did I turn into being such a scardy cat!
God has already provided one airline ticket through the gifts of some amazing people. The funny thing is, this was provided even before we had officially decided to go. You can’t tell me that was just a coincidence! We are in the process of trying to find additional service work (i.e. help in schools, orphanages, farms etc.) after the conference is over. We aren’t sure what this will look like yet, but I am so grateful for the opportunity. This trip is something that we feel confident that God is asking us to do and even though fear steps in the way ever so often, I am very excited about walking this path. I will keep you posted on further details and updates.
View of the mountains in Pokhara Nepal
I’d like to say a bit more about those fears I mentioned earlier. Is it just me or do you ever have fear about opportunities that feel like they are bigger than you can comprehend or imagine? This is what this trip feels like to me. Actually that is what my life feels like right now. I get all chaotic in my head and try to control everything.
It’s that catastrophe thinking, you know the kind. It’s that thing, that voice, those thoughts, that sneak in and take over our mind. It tells us, oh my gosh, you can’t really do this or be that. What if x ,y or z happens? What will so and so think? That person is so irritating; they just don’t understand what I need! From my experience if this kind of fear is not caught in time, it will shut down our desire to take hold of the opportunity. A telltale sign that it’s fear is when you realize that the focus has shifted from others to being ALL ABOUT YOU.
So how do we stop it, how do we catch it in the act? Well, I needed help even though I consciously wasn’t’ asking for it. God gave me some “kick in the butt - words” from dear friends. They told me that I wasn’t seeing things clearly and that I needed to let go of trying to control everything. They told me that I needed to refocus on God and what He wants to accomplish and how this opportunity can be used for others. Surrender! All will be provided. Of course I really didn’t want to hear all that, but thank God they were willing to speak into my life!
In a word, don’t laugh, I’m in the process once AGAIN of letting go (surrendering) and trusting. Hasn’t that been the theme of my life for the past year? Holy buckets! (as my friend would say). Honestly though, I’m grateful. And I’m grateful to you that you are willing to read my musings, ponderings, process, insights, and sometimes all out craziness.
I’ll keep you updated about the mission trip. Brian and I will be doing a fundraising gig soon and Brian will have his demo cd’s there if you’d like one.
One other thing that you might be interested in especially during what can sometimes be a stressful Holiday Season, is a tool I’ve created called The Meditation Garden. Believe it or not, meditation has helped me tremendously with that “fear” issue and has helped me hear from God in a way I never have before. If you’d like to know more about it, you can take a look at it here.
Thank you for reading and riding this ride with me!
Pam
God is great! Hello Nepal….the Day’s are on their way.
Thanks for your comment Kim. You are so right, God is great and we are blessed to have friends like you!